As I am sitting here, listening to my kids screech as they run through the house playing, I thought, ‘Being a stay at home mother is so rewarding, but it’s hard.’ So, so hard sometimes. I know you stay at home mamas get what I’m saying. I have zero adult interaction throughout my day. I needed something for me to voice my opinions, tell about my life, struggles, and the daily chaos that comes with being a step mom, stay at home mother, and wife. Sometimes we lose ourselves giving so much of ourselves to other people and it’s nice to feel ‘heard’ even if you aren’t actually ‘speaking.’ This gives me a platform of some sort to do so. It is kind of like a therapy to me. I’ve always loved writing and have been told I have a way with words. I don’t know about that, but I’ll give it a shot.

Too many times recently I have wanted to take to Facebook or some other social media to speak, ‘vent’ or just generally tell my opinions on things that probably no one cares about, but me. So this blog is really just my way to let loose, and not force anyone to read what I’m thinking. If you came here, you want to read it. So it makes it much easier to say what I want to say.

I was actually inspired to start a blog from dealing with the daily struggles that come along with being a stepmom. So why not write about them, and about being a mother and wife as well. I would like to tell some of our story, without giving too much unwanted details.

About me, I grew up with a semi normal childhood. Parents divorced at age 10 and it crushed me. I never saw it coming. My parents NEVER fought. Ever. I never even knew there was a problem. That’s how well they handled their issues and the divorce. There was never a court order. I grew up going where I wanted and visiting both parents whenever I wanted. I am so grateful for how they handled things. They never said a bad word about each other to me. They never made me feel like I had to choose. They were always friends even through the hurt feelings. Other than that I went to high school, graduated, went to college for a couple of years and realized it wasn’t my forte. Job wise, I’ve dabbled in a little bit of everything I feel like. However, nothing I’ve found beats being at home with my babies. I’m so thankful that I get to do so, but I feel like I need to start doing more for me, to just get out of the house for a little while.

I’m a mother to 3 of my own bio children. Ages 1, 4 and 13. And a stepmother to one child age 11. Gosh that’s a lot of kiddos. They bring the best chaos to my life. I love it. I wouldn’t know what to do without them. There is always something fun or chaotic happening in my house with 4 kids. I became a mother to my oldest daughter at 20 years young. Her and I have basically grown up together. She came into my life when I needed her the most. Her little hugs got me through some of the toughest moments of my life. My next baby boy is 4. The one whose given me a run for my money since he was born. He has the most passionate and fighter spirit, like me. The one who brought out a strength in me that I didn’t know existed. He was born having uncontrollable seizures at 4 days old. I’ll tell more about that later. And my last little baby has a smile and the sweetest spirit that will melt your heart. I can tell he is going to be the calmer boy, that rolls with the punches.

My husband and I met 7 years ago in 2013 at a practice our daughters attended. We didn’t speak again until 2014. Social media was our matchmaker. He started snap chatting me and we quickly became best friends that just ‘clicked.’ We’ve honestly been inseparable ever since. We used to go out together ‘on the town’ and literally dance all night. We were so in love. That ‘new, heart pounding, can’t keep your hands off each other’ kind of love. The ‘only exists in movies’ kind of love. When I had to leave him for any amount of time, we both hated it. I still remember how he would walk up and pick me up in the middle of the street and kiss me goodbye. I’ve never met a person that I could stay up talking to all night long, to where we would watch the sunrise together. We had everything to talk about, like we had known each other before this lifetime. Those days were so fun. We are still very much in love. Its a different kind of love. The love that matures over the years after so many hardships. The ‘comfort’ and ‘I can’t live without you’ kind of love. We are simply made for each other and I truly and whole heartedly believe that. Some souls are destined to be together. But man he can piss me off like no other human being on planet earth. 🤣

That’s basically it for now. (In a nutshell)

I will get into more later. This was just a short intro. My goal if anything, is just to be relatable to other moms/stepmoms out there trying to make it all work, all while raising beautiful little human beings. I may have a little more drama than most, not by choice, but hey that’s life. But off to bed I go. I have a one year old little boys birthday celebration tomorrow! Thanks for reading. If you want to contact me click the little three lines on the page and then the contact button from the menu!

Until next time.

Jenna